Hello, I'm Azea1ia.

I don't want to mention my name because I'm a little bit nervous here but if you wish to identify me with a name, I'm Azealia/Azzi. I'm 20 from England but hopefully moving to Finland at some point, and I've recently gotten a stick to help me about. The stick itself is amazing, it has helped me get alot of weight off my bad hip, and the sparks it seems to shoot flaming prickling pain down my leg. However, the stick has changed me. For some people it's been a wake up call that I've been struggling and am still struggling and getting worse with whatevers wrong with me, and others have grown distant. There's been alot more heckling at me due to the fact that I am 20 and look younger. I just want to be able to live my life but every wobbly step I take towards steering my own path out of depression and my stupid bed seems to bring controversy. I keep struggling with people thinking I'm faking it, or my relationship is going too fast because I'm autistic I'm seen as unreliable. I hate it. I have to keep reminding people that I'm a grown woman with a damn brain in my head and I'm only wired a little bit diffrently to everyone else. I've been taking my relationship slowly, but I want to be able to move to Finland and settle down so that I can work on hobbies and getting comfortable in life. I just want someone to see me as a grown woman with feelings and not a china teacup. It drives me mad.