In a really bad place right now really nneed my friends on here

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  • chiarieds
    chiarieds Online Community Member Posts: 16,837 Championing
    Hi @cupcake88 - it makes sense that you need to be seen by a Dr after the weekend to see how you are (& be honest). Hopefully you will know more then. Also hope the ward stays peaceful & that you get a decent nights sleep tonight. Speak to you again, xx
  • chiarieds
    chiarieds Online Community Member Posts: 16,837 Championing
    How are things going today @cupcake88 ? - I'm fair worn out already as I'm looking after my son's little dog again, but only until about 3pm.
  • poppy123456
    poppy123456 Online Community Member Posts: 64,463 Championing
    Oh no, i've only just seen this! I'm so sorry to hear you're in hospital again @cupcake88 but happy to know that you will at least be kept safe!
    I've sent you a recent picture of little Noah today so i hope that at least makes you smile just a little, i know you love seeing pictures of him.
    Thinking of you my friend and please remember that you so many friends here to support you anytime you need it.
    Sending some gentle hugs your way! Lots of love xx
  • Alex_Alumni
    Alex_Alumni Scope alumni Posts: 7,538 Championing
    Hi @cupcake88 how are you doing today?

    I'm sorry you're in hospital, but I'm glad to hear the ward is quiet for you and the staff are okay. You said they were going to help you find a new nurse?
  • L_Volunteer
    L_Volunteer Community Volunteer Adviser, Scope Member Posts: 7,922 Championing
    Hi @cupcake88

    Thanks for keeping us updated. Like everyone else here on Scope's forum, I am sorry to hear you are in hospital but I am glad to hear people are looking after you. How are you currently feeling?
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    Hi every one i feel very let down by the mental health services in my area I feel like I’m just caught in a cycle from home to hospital then back again . My community support has gone from bad to worst they don’t actually do any thing . I mean my other nurse who retiered recently she was strict with me but never rude and she got things done . I just don’t trust this nurse I have in the community after our falling out .

    im just having a hard time at the moment I feel like hospital is my second home my partner even jokes bout us spending Valentine’s Day in the hospital car park lol because we litterally live at the mental health assessment place . 
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    I want to thank you all for your amazing support mental illness is so hard and you all have supported me and said prayers for me it means a lot xx 
  • chiarieds
    chiarieds Online Community Member Posts: 16,837 Championing
    Oh @cupcake88 - you would support any of us just the same, & we all just want to know you're alright. Are you no further forward in getting a new nurse in the community? I thought it was said they would help you with this.
    Now no spending Valentine's Day in the hospital car park.....we just want you home safe & well. Have you seen a Dr yet, or will that be tomorrow? Sending another gentle hug, xx
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    Hi my dear friend I have been told I need to stay abit longer then they will decide what happens . Whether I go on to a proper ward or not as I’m on a assessment ward so it’s very basic and when I say basic I mean very basic I’m not happy here at all . X 
  • chiarieds
    chiarieds Online Community Member Posts: 16,837 Championing
    Sorry you need to stay a while longer before a decision is made, & especially as you're not happy there; it must be very challenging. I hope you fight to get a better nurse in the community as no-one should have someone in their home they don't trust, least of all someone who is supposed to be helping you. Stay strong my dear friend; I'm so sorry you're not happy, but I hope you feel safe. You know you're always in my thoughts & prayers, xx
  • Lou67
    Lou67 Online Community Member Posts: 8,712 Championing
    @cupcake88.
    I’m so sorry to read this Iv just saw your post haven’t been on for a few days. 
    I hope your safe and stay strong your well loved remember that.
    Your in my thoughts and prayers ❤️❤️ Xx
  • OverlyAnxious
    OverlyAnxious Online Community Member Posts: 4,355 Championing
    Hi @cupcake88, I'm sorry to see you're back in hospital again. 

    Are you getting any treatment/therapy there or just being kept safe at the moment?  It does seem like there isn't really a long term plan for you currently and something needs to change to stop this cycle.



  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    Hi every one I was allowed out into town today on my own and I can’t really say on the forum as it might trigger some one but I did some thing that put my life at risk and got brought back to the hospital so now there’s no chance I’ll be out before Xmas . There moving me to a ward at some point who knows when or where it will be I hate where iam now.

    i decided not to have visitors because when I get visitors I get worst when they leave especially my partner . It’s all waiting at the moment for a answer of what is going on . I’ll keep you all updated my lovely friends x 
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    The reasons why I’m struggling here is because there’s more male staff than female staff I prefer to be some where where’s there’s more female staff . It’s really basic because it’s a treatment ward so there are no activities going on no colouring books no nothing the staff aren’t as nice and they never have time to speak to you some are nice some are not . 

    I wish I hadn’t left the posh one I was in a few weeks ago because I was well looked after there I just wanted to come home . 

    Now I’m stuck staring at 4 cold blank walls . I felt really creeped out when I asked to go sit in the quiet room and it was basically a room with toilet and surrounded by crash mats it was like one of those old school padded cells it really freaked me out . 
  • chiarieds
    chiarieds Online Community Member Posts: 16,837 Championing
    I'm so sorry @cupcake88 - I hope you get moved to a good hospital soon, & that things will then improve for you, then after that will you please stop trying to see what different hospitals are like, please! Seriously, you know how much we all want you to be so much improved, & it must be difficult for you waiting to see where a bed can be found,
    Thank you for your update again, tho I would have wished things different. Try to stay positive, please; you will get better, & I hope that day isn't too long in coming. Love & hugs, xx
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    Hi my dear friend I’m prepared to really work with services this time I mean some times they are **** depends where you go and some I don’t want to interact with services . But even if it means me being in hospital for Xmas then so be it I deserve to get well and live some normally it’s also not fair on my partner and dog seeing me in and out of hospital . 

    I’m planning on making this my final hospital stay for mental illness make this admission to hospital count . Xx
  • Alex_Alumni
    Alex_Alumni Scope alumni Posts: 7,538 Championing
    Hello @cupcake88 I'm really glad to hear that you want to work with the services, I believe you've got the strength to do this. Thank you for sharing how you're feeling.

    I'm sorry to hear how you were feeling earlier about where you are right now, but hopefully as chiarieds says, you can move somewhere nicer soon, and things will improve. 

    Always remember you have the support of the whole online community, your partner, your dog, and everyone else who loves you as well. Please keep us all up to date with how you get on, and carry on reaching out to us here. 

    Alex
  • chiarieds
    chiarieds Online Community Member Posts: 16,837 Championing
    edited December 2021
    Hi @cupcake88 - that's the positivity you need. :) Of course you deserve to get well; that's what we're all hoping for, & we'll all be here with you along the way. I can't say how much it means to see you determined that this time things will work out for you, as you're part of the team too.
    If you're not home for Christmas, I'm sure you're partner will just celebrate it with you when you're back home with him & your dog again. Look forward to that, & your life together once more. I'm so pleased with how you're turning things around; so proud of you, xx
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    Hi every one I have moved hospitals now as I explained before the other one was a assessment ward I’m now on a treatment ward but was no local beds available so I got a out of area bed again I’m in another private hospital I seem to get lucky and into private hospitals so far the staff seem very nice usually mental health hospitals have awful bedding where your duvet falls out the other side this is double bed which proper mattress and duvet it’s homely my room it’s spacious. 

    I’m blessed to have a bed in a hospital because literally there is a major bed crisis at the moment some really poorly people are getting turned away as there are no beds . 

    I have a fighting spirit and lately mental illness has taken over well not any more . Mental illness won’t win this time . I’ll have Xmas day when I come out . Like I did with my bday I celebrated that when I came out . I need to make this hospital admission my last because this no life in and out of hospital . Glad I have all my friends on here cheering me on x 
  • Lou67
    Lou67 Online Community Member Posts: 8,712 Championing
    Hi Cupcake 

    Im so pleased you’ve been moved to a much better hospital.

    Your sounding much more positive which is lovely to read.

    Your in all our thoughts and prayers.

    Stick in there and stay strong.❤️Xx