Autism/Depression

Andi66 That's why we're all here - this is the one place where we can talk and share and understand each other and NOT be judged and badly treated. Thank goodness there's one place! We've got your back, we get it. I have a T shirt that says 'People like you are why people like me have to take medication'. I don't have the guts to wear it much, but I leave it out to remind myself - it's not always us, sometimes it's the rest of them. We shouldn't have to feel bad because other people aren't decent. We can't make them be decent, we can't help being a casualty sometimes, but we don't have to feel it's all our own fault because it isn't ❤

Thank you everyone for your kindness

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Not interrupting Strawberry, CONTRIBUTING! lol

Yeah, all the time, I'm like The Walking Dead. Cannot stay asleep for anything. I do get exhausted and can drop asleep on the sofa but wake up after about 20 mins, go to bed, do the same, etc. etc. and that's how my night goes until 2 or 3am when I'm so wide awake I just get up and start cleaning the house or watching TV or something because it's pointless and stressful just lying there. I wind myself up getting stressed about not sleeping the more I lie there. Sometimes it's pain related, but most of the time just my head in panic mode - nobody would sleep if they thought they were at risk and my 'afraid' and anxious brain tells me that constantly. Not sure how to defeat it Strawberry, but I feel the same. It doesn't help with our mental health and wellbeing to be on edge all the time and consequently permanently exhausted ❤Most of my posts here are stupid-o'clock lol

I also absolutely LOVE the peacefulness of antisocial hours. If you're worrying about a certain issue it can be difficult because you can feel alone, but I love the hours when the rest of the world is in bed and therefore not annoying me lol I've also always liked jobs where you have to work weekends as I get no joy from being home when all my neighbours are out shouting to each other across gardens, jack-hammering the patio, blaring their radios, booting footballs, screaming at the kids, dogs barking, etc., I'd far rather give it a swerve and swap the weekends for days in the week when they're all either working or out doing something else. I guess I'm just totally antisocial really lol But I don't think people these days give enough respect to neighbours, not just evenings but ALL the time, because lots of people have unusual sleep patterns, even shift workers, and a bit of consideration would be welcome. The way alot of housing is (especially at the cheaper end) everything you do impacts on somebody else. I'm always aware of it, but everyone else seems to think if they want to listen to rave music full volume or their motorbike outside the bedroom window then so do I. It's not great if you finally make peace with yourself and get in a 'sleepy place' and someone starts letting all hell loose outside.

you and me are extremely alike

Me too I take 6 amtriplyine and two other tablets if I don't sleep im awful