Autism/Depression

Strawberry1

Thank you @Kali85 and @Nightcity . I just think it's lots of things that make me think like this . I appreciate all posts here.

Andi66

I've been on antidepressants for 10 years different ones, just come off the one , wasn't working. Did tell the doctor but she wanted me to go on one I had previously which stopped working. I've had counselling early in the year , waited 4 years. Had mental problems since I was in my 20s .I'm In my 50snow. Diagnosed with Autism few years ago. Had problems with ex friend recently, no good at relationship, had abusive ones in the past.

I think all this worry with pip and the esa thing and uc migration is another worry.

Ii tend to dwell and seeing a lot of hassle and complications people's had with it, feels me with dread. That I find difficult even to do stuff I like, hobbies

Sorry about all this

Strawberry1

You have nothing to apologise for @Andi66 , you haven't said anything wrong. I can resonate with alot of what you have posted. I wish things were not triggering for you I truly wished things were easier . I myself don't do hobbies either. It's nice to be able to post here and let things out . Strength in numbers hopefully @Andi66 . Sending gentle hugs.

Strawberry1

I would love to be a stronger person.

Strawberry1

Sorry to be a burden here I am really curious of the traits of Autism. I'm Awaiting an assumption. I do honestly believe I have autistic traits . I always feel like I don't fit it . I don't feel great in other people's company. I'd rather be alone in my own company. Always felt different to others. Skin picked for years and years . Copied other people when I was younger. Feeling overwhelmed after certain events.

Strawberry1

Sorry to be a burden . That's another one saying Sorry alot .

Strawberry1

Doesn't like routine disruption.

Strawberry1

Prefers animals over people

Strawberry1

I apologise unreservedly

Strawberry1

The last thing I want to be is a burden.

durhamjaide2001

you sre definitely not a burden

Strawberry1

Thank you @durhamjaide2001 .

WhatThe

Sweet Strawberry 🍓 it was very much like that for me too. Started looking at the characteristics associated with autism and realised that I matched so many that my daughter probably was onto something…and she was right. As you probably are. Too many very specific features of behaviour, appearance and preferences to be coincidences.

We understand you and know what you're going through. Believing in it enough to accept it takes a while and we all hope you don't have to wait long for assessment and diagnosis.

Strawberry1

Thank you @WhatThe , I always appreciate the support and kindness and time and feedback.

WhatThe

 usually it's others comments that make me that way.

Nightcity, I've come to the conclusion that my autism is as much about other people as it is me.

Strawberry1

Sending GIGANTIC BIG HUGS TO @Kali85 , @WhatThe and @Nightcity and anyone else on this forum page who's names I've not mentioned ( apologies my memory is rubbish) . Take care of yourselves and please be kind to yourselves too. Best wishes always

Kali85

thank you sooo much @Strawberry1 I’m just so down and fed up with everything 😢 it was nice to hear your kind words ❤️

Strawberry1

So sorry to hear how things are for you @Kali85 , if you need to talk about anything I would be more than happy to listen. Your welcome.

Kali85

thank you @Strawberry1 i really appreciate that ❤️

Jimm_Scope

Hey @Kali85, sorry to hear things aren't going great. Hope thinks pick up for you very soon!