How is your day going?

Catherine21

Its so hard really hard and the beast of bpd every minute of everyday emotions changed and unless someone experience bpd rage would never understand how it takes over your body mind soul hold onto what you invision step by step you achieved so much over the last few days those horrible inner voices calling you names are not real and don't apply to you it's hard to be kind to ourselves your so kind to people on here we value you very much

66Mustang

@Grumpy1314

I'm glad to see you on here

Sorry I can't write much as I'm struggling now

I don't want to make a fuss or make @WhatThe feel bad but just want to be honest as that's the best way to get true support from people… but it's knocked my (I realise very delicate) self-worth reading that I was insensitive for saying that you are worth listening to

I'm really sorry for coming across like a horrible person but I don't understand how I was saying something bad

All I know is I was saying it because I wanted you to know you're a worthy person and if anyone thought I was horrible I guess I can't do anything about that, as someone who's going through similar I don't like writing generic posts, I want to write honest stuff to actually help

66Mustang

Feel a bit better writing that as I know @WhatThe is an understanding person and will probably write something nice back but I'm just sorry for being so horrible, there was no intent and I think intent is what makes truly malicious people

66Mustang

@Grumpy1314 your whisky barrels look lovely

Just an idea, and it'd be one of those things that only a few people would "get" but thosse who noticed would chuckle …….. but what about planting barley in one of them? 😂 Barley is quite hardy and low-maintenance I believe, and it's actually quite pretty

Schildpad

Morning. I feel tired very tired and also I am very scared. Yet another day..

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1062917#Comment_1062917

Hey your message came across as very caring don't take this inwards can totally see it was a genuine kind message

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1062922#Comment_1062922

Me too I'm terrified I don't know what's going on I just can't settle more panic attacks daily how to fight this feels so powerful living like this is awful

luvpink

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1062653#Comment_1062653

Thank you.

Albus_Alumni

Not a worry @66Mustang I didn't think it was insensitive at all, just you passing on your great wisdom as always. ❤️

Schildpad

Today is a nice day. Sun is outI wait for the post and then will go for out even if it is a stroll around the neighbourhood. And back home.. and I wil try not to think too much.. tomorrow I want to be ok for.my Fridays stuff.

zebadee

Was woken this morning made feel angry be ause i wanted a lay in as I'm in burnout. But my 3 year old granddaughter soon changed that feeling say "morning nanny".😀.

Then read your comment schildpad thank you for the inspiration of gratitude 🙏.

Today I don't have any plans. So self care is now my plan chill and deal with the burn out and enjoy what is beautiful and be grateful for the day.

Albus_Alumni

I forgot to say good morning to everyone else, I do apologise! It's sunny and rainy here, so the garden will be happy. The pigeons were all looking a tad soggy waiting for their breakfast this morning. 😆

May your days be full of joy and wonder, whatever you have planned. ❤️

xodza

not too bad today although been bit of struggle to try manage pain levels the medication helps but some days can be difficult due to discomfort just have try manage the best we can with our situation and think we all valued and nice to have people on here that understands

WhatThe

Hi 66Mustang, thanks. You know I'm not deliberately unkind and you are certainly not a horrible person!! 🤗 I knew I was taking a risk by saying what I did and I will try to explain.

"Like if you really thought it was true you'd just disappear without a trace"

That was the bit that worried me in case it was taken as a challenge (as in, well, why don't you just…?) It's a bit weird discussing a third party like this and I was probably being over-sensitive myself.

Wishing everyone a peaceful day 🌤️

Albus_Alumni

Ah that's sounding lovely and positive @Grumpy1314 you have your inner chimp, I have my "head weasels" and reptile brain. 😆

Having something to look forward to, or at least aim for is so so important I think. Eyes on the prize and all that.

and no problem @WhatThe we're all friends here, we're all non horrible friends here. ❤️

Albus_Alumni

Oh that'll be a fab birthday gift! Plus it's a good excuse to have that extra cocktail 😉

I'm planning my first outing in about 9 years, a nice little jaunt to a german xmas market.

luvpink

I am so exhausted today.

I have a workman here installing a new shower.

Schildpad

I am returning home.. I can not trust myself anymore. I got very agitated and angry with an old woman because she skipped the queue not realising she was changing something ... I can not trust mydelf

Schildpad

I just do not understand I get so jumpy and angry.. I truly should never leave home... I really should not. And I hope it will pass. But when things like this happen..I can not forget

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Schildpad

I can not edit. It shriks the message and can not do anything

.I movef her trolley and told hre she should have said she was exchanging something.. well it is too late .. and I hope it will pass. ..but I regret even saying something.. always making a fool of myself.