Autism/Depression

Strawberry1

Take care of yourselves everyone 💜

Strawberry1

Thank you for your support @Nightcity .

Kali85

I literally worry about worrying, I psychoanalyse every last tiny little detail, and worry about it all, I feel physically sick worrying about social situations before I even get anywhere, I worry about just leaving my house, I go round and round in circles stressing about any possible dramas or confrontations that some times are completely non existent, I worry about people not liking me, or them picking up on my awkwardness. Although I struggle with many other problems too that make my life so hard, I think if I could stop worrying so much, my life would be more manageable or bearable. I wish my brain would just shut up! I become completely exhausted from all the over thinking

Kali85

@Nightcity thank you, yeah I am the same with any psychotropic medications nothing works, I have tried every SSRI, SNRI and several antipsychotics and mood stabilisers and loads of combinations of different ones together at different times, yet only a few helped ease my problems by making me completely numb but the effects never lasted long even with Dr constantly increasing the dose over time, after a while I would be told to gradually come off the tablets so they done more harm than good. Last year I was told that I am treatment resistant and the mental health team refused to prescribe me anything other than lorazepam and diazepam

Strawberry1

Your feedback is very interesting @Kali85 .

Strawberry1

Hope I'm not intruding @Kali85 and @Nightcity . Take care of yourselves please 🙏.

Kali85

@Strawberry1 you are not intruding, I am happy to talk to you ❤️ it’s nice that we can openly talk about our worries and struggles on this forum, I have found these conversations so helpful and comforting, it’s nice to have people to talk with that understand and can offer insight or advice, or even tips with coping.

Strawberry1

Thank you @Kali85 and @Nightcity .

Strawberry1

I just don't feel like I'm good enough.

Kali85

I always feel like that @Strawberry1 anything I do is always wrong, it’s an awful way to think of yourself, I wish you would be kinder to yourself ❤️ but at the same time I know how hard it is to break the cycle of constantly putting yourself down and being so hard on yourself, for me it’s one of the hardest habits to break is hating myself and being constantly negative about myself

Strawberry1

Thank you @Kali85 and @Nightcity . I just think it's lots of things that make me think like this . I appreciate all posts here.

Andi66

I've been on antidepressants for 10 years different ones, just come off the one , wasn't working. Did tell the doctor but she wanted me to go on one I had previously which stopped working. I've had counselling early in the year , waited 4 years. Had mental problems since I was in my 20s .I'm In my 50snow. Diagnosed with Autism few years ago. Had problems with ex friend recently, no good at relationship, had abusive ones in the past.

I think all this worry with pip and the esa thing and uc migration is another worry.

Ii tend to dwell and seeing a lot of hassle and complications people's had with it, feels me with dread. That I find difficult even to do stuff I like, hobbies

Sorry about all this

Strawberry1

You have nothing to apologise for @Andi66 , you haven't said anything wrong. I can resonate with alot of what you have posted. I wish things were not triggering for you I truly wished things were easier . I myself don't do hobbies either. It's nice to be able to post here and let things out . Strength in numbers hopefully @Andi66 . Sending gentle hugs.

Strawberry1

I would love to be a stronger person.

Strawberry1

Sorry to be a burden here I am really curious of the traits of Autism. I'm Awaiting an assumption. I do honestly believe I have autistic traits . I always feel like I don't fit it . I don't feel great in other people's company. I'd rather be alone in my own company. Always felt different to others. Skin picked for years and years . Copied other people when I was younger. Feeling overwhelmed after certain events.

Strawberry1

Sorry to be a burden . That's another one saying Sorry alot .

Strawberry1

Doesn't like routine disruption.

Strawberry1

Prefers animals over people

Strawberry1

I apologise unreservedly

Strawberry1

The last thing I want to be is a burden.