In a really bad place right now really nneed my friends on here

Lisatho11987777

@cupcake88 sorry that you felt so bad that you took another overdoseci hope your feeling better and I hope that you get the help you need please take care of yourself 

cupcake88

Thank you for your reply and well wishes . I hope I start to feel better soon I’m lucky they let me go home . I’m resting up x 

Lisatho11987777

@cupcake88 are you on your own worried about you 

cupcake88

My partners with me so you don’t have to worry il be fine thanks for your concern 

cupcake88

Lately I feel that I only have mostly negative news to post . But I like to be honest and genuine with you all with mental health struggles it also may 
help others who read my posts.
mental health to me is a game of snakes and ladders some times you go up a ladder and some times you go back down to the start but keep on going . 

Lisatho11987777

@cupcake88 you have so much to look forward to with your wedding  and planning your wedding you need to focus on getting well and makeing new and happy memories 😊  your friends who know you better on here will be on soon 

Get some rest have food and a drink you need to stay strong we all care about you and want you to get well 

Take care xxx

chiarieds

Hi @cupcake88 - you're going through so much, yet there's so much positivity. You put others first by writing about your struggles so it may help anyone later reading your posts. Then there's your inner strength which you show to keep on fighting to get the right care you need. Most of all you have your lovely partner who cares for you deeply.

I hope you are feeling a little better today, & have caught up on some much needed rest. Stay safe my dear friend. Sending my love & more hugs, xx

Lou67

Hi cupcake 

Im so sorry you’ve went through this again.
Glad your home with your partner, I really hope they can get you a nurse you trust and can work with.

Stay strong and take care off yourself ❤️

poppy123456

HI cupcake, You are an incredibily strong person to have gone through all this. Keep thinking positive, you have a lot to look forward to this year.

-gentle hugs- xx

cupcake88

Hi every one yes I have so much to look forward but yet I’m so low and suicidal. I just can’t explain why I believe my community team can do more even the crisis teams take hours to answer the phone . I’m not happy with the services at the moment That are supposed to keep people 
out of hospital and there 
not bothered . But I’m gonna 
speak my mind until I get a new nurse . 

The one who does my injection is lovely I wish she could be my nurse . If they drop me from the team which I don’t think they will as I’m still really poorly but they 
have no choice now because 
I won’t be speaking to my 
current nurse as I believe she’s 
making me feel worst and does nothing . 

Lisatho11987777

@cupcake88 sorry to hear this I hope that you can get the help you need  try to thimknof nice things or call samaritains and talk to them if you feel suicidal you need to tell your crisis team stay safe please 

chiarieds

Hi @cupcake88 - I'm so sorry that you're having to fight for the help you need; no-one should have to go through this. I do think that it's an excellent idea to put your concerns in writing. You are amazing for all you try to do. I do think your community team will now have to work with you to find a new nurse, not one who makes you feel worse.

Great to hear that the nurse who does your injections is lovely. If you get the right support, then things will look up, so keep on fighting, xx

cupcake88

Thanks for your advice and kind words . I just spoke to the crisis team they can send online  notes to my community team so there gonna do that for me explain how I need a new nurse . Not every ones gonna get on and I’m sure I’m not the only one who’s asked to change nurse . 

I just keep feeling like I’m not gonna get better if she’s my 
nurse . And I don’t want to 
end up back in hospital again . 

chiarieds

That's progress @cupcake88 - it's been obvious for quite some time that you need a new nurse, & you haven't been helped with this as quickly as it should have happened. You certainly don't need an unhelpful nurse. I'm so sorry it's taken ages, but it looks like you'll get there.

Take care of yourself my dear friend; you're still in my thoughts & prayers every day, xx

cupcake88

Thanks for your kind words my dear friend . I’m hoping I do get a change of nurse or I’ll distance my self from the community team.

i hopefully will get better looked after x

Tori_Scope

I'm glad that they've agreed to send some notes over to support you in asking for a new nurse @cupcake88 I agree that sounds like a bit of positive progress. 

Although it can be a fight to get the help you need, please do continue to reach out to the crisis team if you're feeling suicidal and need some additional support.

How are you feeling today, after what I can see was a difficult weekend?

cupcake88

Hi I’m feeling not so bad today I was able to get up get my self ready for the day . I even went into town to do some trampoling I have like a monthly pass where I can go as much as I like for 12 quid a month . When I’m bouncing it distracts me from 
my thoughts and makes me tiered so I did that today . Been doing little things like cleaning up took my dog for a walk . 

I still have the same nurse she called me today she didn’t tell me off or any thing like she usually does but she was un helpful as 
always nothing interesting to 
say What so ever . 

My partner is on lates this week and that’s when I really struggle when he’s on lates because he’s 
not back till like 11 30 pm . 

So I really struggle to keep my self safe like now I’m debating either going to get a take away or going to the coop opposite it and buying aload of pain killers to take x 

Alex_Alumni

Hi @cupcake88 I'm glad to hear you're feeling a little better than earlier this weekend, and you filled up your day with things you like doing and seeing your dog. 

I'm concerned about how your feeling right now, are you at home at the moment? Is there anyone you can call to be with you? Please remember that if you're struggling you can call 999 straight away, or get in touch with your support team. 

Don't forget Mind also has support to help you when you're struggling too. I'm going to be sending you an email shortly so keep an eye out for it.

It's really important that you look after yourself, can you tell me what kind of take away you were thinking of getting? Would your partner like it?

Lou67

Oh Cupcake

Please don’t do that. 
Is the crisis bus out tonight, that you could goto to speak to them and break your night up for a cpl off hours.
If you feel you can’t keep yourself safe please phone 999

Take care ❤️

Sandy_123

Hi @cupcake88 try not to think of those bad thoughts  i know its easy for me to say that. Stay here and talk to us instead. Definitely get the take away. Call your crisis team about how you feel,  if you need to dial 999 for help. And you can call samaritans to talk to some one.
What take a away was you thinking of eating.