In a really bad place right now really nneed my friends on here

cupcake88

I don’t even want to contact crisis team or crisis pad now because of her because it gets written down what l say she reads it then tells me off like I’m a child . 

chiarieds

Hmm, yes @cupcake88 - I didn't think much of what you say in the crisis pad being passed back to the community team. If they were concerned about your mental health, then as a matter of safeguarding, that's fair enough, but not otherwise. Don't let it stop you going to the crisis pad tho as it seems it has helped you before, xx

cupcake88

Every thing that is said to them is wrote on my notes so my community team have access to those notes and this nurse reads every thing then likes to confront me in a real mean way it’s hard to explain . She’s not a nice person I just really hope I don’t have to deal with her again I’m gonna ignore any contact from her but i did state that I didn’t want her calling or visiting me again so whether they have taken any of that on board who knows . 

cupcake88

Just to let you know my nurse called me this morning and I told her how I felt bout her and she said she didn’t mean to offend me she apologised. 

She said she’s gonna do more 
to help me . So it was worth speaking up thanks for every ones support on this forum I’m glad I spoke up . 

chiarieds

An apology goes a long way @cupcake88 - so I hope this is a turning point for her. Very pleased you spoke up; you definitely did the right thing. Hugs, xx

Alex_Alumni

That's really great to hear @cupcake88 and a big well done for letting her know how you've been feeling. That's a very hard thing to do, so it's very courageous of you to tell her.

I'm glad that she's apologised and hopefully you can build a better relationship moving forward. It'll be that much easier to let her know about how you're feeling if ever you do need to speak up in future now as well

What are you up to today? 

Lisatho11987777

Glad you got it sorted people don't k ow if you don't speak up they probly didn't even know they were doing it they see so many people I expect it just becomes robotic I found that as a carer you just do what is expected of you and you get stuck in the same routine but that doesn't work for everyone  hopefuly now the nurse will be better for you 

Lou67

Good morning cupcake 

Im so glad she apologised to you I’m sure it’ll help you move on.

Im so proud off you your much stronger than you think. If you hadn’t been able to speak up for yourself things would never have changed.

So be proud off yourself and keep doing what your doing you’ve so much to look forward to.

Take care ❤️

cupcake88

Hi every one yet it’s good she apologised I think she realised she pushed it to much to the point where she would prob get into trouble , 

I’m having problems with my legs there really restless and due 
to my injection it’s such 
a horrible feeling , I’ll speak 
to my nurse bout it on Monday 
not that I think she would do any thing . 

My injection is working for me mentally but not for my body it’s making me very uncomfortable. 

I just feel like I can’t talk to my nurse . X 

chiarieds

I'm so sorry about the side effects of your injection @cupcake88 - your nurse may not be able to do anything unless she knows about a med to counter this. Altho it sounds most uncomfortable, it's good the injections are helping you mentally. Do engage your nurse, she may be able to advise. Thinking about you, xx

cupcake88

I’m feeling really low again friends I took another over dose last weekend and it’s messed me up still now I’m sluring my speech still . My partner has had to hide all the medication and just give me it daily but my main medication is the injection. 

I have so much to look forward too in life but yet I just don’t want to be around any more x 

Alex_Alumni

Hey @cupcake88 I'm sorry to hear about what's happened, and that you're feeling low.

Sometimes there's no reason why we feel the way we feel, but I know you'll do your best to hold on to all that you've got to look forward to in life, as you say. You're a very strong person and you're doing so well.

It's good that your partner is able to support you, but have you spoken to the team around you about how you're feeling as well, and what's happened with your meds?

How are you feeling about the injections? I remember you saying they were becoming easier to deal with, I hope that's still the case

Thanks for reaching out, we're all here for you.

cupcake88

Yes the side effects are up and down at the moment and my mood is just so low . Got my nurse coming tomorrow who’s not nice and I’m sure she will tell me off bout some thing . Or say I should find stuff to distract my self with but I have no motivation. 

I haven’t had a wash or changed my clothes in a long time I just don’t want to I have no motivation, 

I constantly call the crisis team 
I’m clearly not well and my 
community team just get at me all the time really can’t cope with 
my new nurse . 

There job is to keep me out of hospital and keep supported at home which they do not . 

Sandy_123

Hi @cupcake sorry to read that you feel low. It's good your partner is very supportive. Have you contacted your support teams? Hopefully you feel better soon

Alex_Alumni

Could your partner or your dog be your motivation @cupcake88? I know you care about them very much. Even it's a really small positive thing, hold onto that and think about it being in your life tomorrow, and the next day, and so on. 

And do you think you'd feel more comfortable in some fresher clothes, or after a wash? When I feel down, a nice shower or a bath helps to lift me up, and makes me feel just a little lighter. 

I remember how much better you felt after you explained to your nurse how you'd been feeling, and cleared the air. Maybe you could think about ideas to help with motivation together? 

cupcake88

Yes my partner is amazing I’m so lucky . He’s tried calling the community team and they never called him back . He thinks I need more help . And he thinks the 
community team can do more .

i feel like I live in the hospital the amount of times I have been there . I get married in 4 months so I really can’t be getting sectioned or ending up back in hospital I’ll have my wedding dress fitting soon x

Lou67

@cupcake88
So sad to read this, I know your not keen on your worker but hopefully she can help tomorrow.

It sounds like your meds maybe aren’t at the correct level for you yet. I’m no doctor I’m just speaking from prior experience with my sister.

I hope you get good support and advice tomorrow.

Take care ❤️

chiarieds

I'm so sorry you've been feeling so low @cupcake88 - I only wish you were getting more support from the community team. Surely they must see that you're not at all well. Do they communicate with the consultant you saw in the last hospital? Perhaps he could help with some of your medication other than the injection you get. Wishing you all the good health possible my dear friend, xx

Alex_Alumni

What a lovely thing to look forward to @cupcake88 Your wedding, there's the motivation you're looking for! And we all know you can do it. 

I hope you feel better soon too

Sandy_123

@cupcake88 congratulations on getting married soon.