Update

cupcake88

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Hi every one just thought I would update you all sorry I haven’t been able to log in to my other post for some reason so starting a new post . Since last speaking I have taken another over dose and had to stay and be on a drip for 24 hours to clear out my liver . 

My community team has been shocking and continues to let me down I haven’t been doing so good at all my friends xx 

janer1967

Nice to see you back everyone has missed you 

chiarieds

I'm so sorry to read you haven't been doing so good @cupcake88 - is the therapy at least helping? Try & stay well & stay strong. Lots of hugs, xx

Alex_Alumni

Hi @cupcake88 thanks for your update, I'm so sorry to hear about what's happened lately, as you can see everyone's really pleased to hear from you.

How are you finding therapy, and are you still having the injections?

And how are your partner and your dog doing too?

cupcake88

Hi every one . Yes my wedding is only a couple of months away now . I’m still on the injections . My therapist has covid so she’s been off for two weeks and can you believe they didn’t even telephone me to let me know I ended up going in and then they told me so that was a wasted trip .  My community team aren’t very 
good at all and guess what no 
meds review yet . 

And they wonder why I’m struggling so much they do nothing to help me at all it’s so hard it really is x 

chiarieds

Sorry it's so difficult for you in so many ways at the moment @cupcake88 - It's hard to understand that you weren't advised about your therapist having Covid.

It must be so very hard for you, but try concentrating on your wedding above all; not long now. There's nothing better to look forward to...... Always in my thoughts (so pleased to have heard from you), & in my prayers every night, xx

Lou67

Hi @cupcake88

Iv just saw this post, I was worried about you.

Im so sorry you were back in hospital and things have been rough.
Please stay strong and look after yourself, you have so much to look forward to.

Take care ❤️

cupcake88

Hi thanks for your responses I’m having a really bad day today friends I’m feeling very suicidal. 

I duno what to do my partner is going to take me to the hospital but I don’t want to go . Not sure if I should call a ambulance. 

Lou67

Hi @cupcake88

Im sorry to read your still feeling as bad.
If you haven’t yet left for the hospital I think you should phone an ambulance.

I just hope you can get something done you can’t go on like this, the community team need to change the way the are treating you as it certainly isn’t working. It’s so unfair on you.
Really hope you get some help.

Take care ❤️

chiarieds

Very sorry to read this @cupcake88 - get yourself safely to hospital, please. I do hope your situation will be looked at too so you can get some proper help & care. Gentle hugs on their way, xx

Tori_Scope

Please do call an ambulance if you're not feeling safe @cupcake88, or go to hospital with your partner. How are you feeling now?

It's good to hear from you, but I'm sorry things are tough at the moment. 

cupcake88

Hi every one I managed to get some phone support from the crisis pad . That’s helped for now but they said my community team need to do more to keep me out of hospital because there not doing a good job I’m begging for the help and they make false promises or they lie . 

If my partner wasn’t here today I 
would of taken another over dose. And that’s not good . I’m scared I’ll get sectioned with my wedding coming up , my community team should be doing more . X 

Lou67

Hi @cupcake88

Im so glad you got some support from the crisis pad, but they're right your community team need to be doing a lot more to help you.

Just so glad your safe just now, keep your chin up and remember you have lots off friends on here who care about you.

Stay strong ❤️

Tori_Scope

I'm glad that the crisis team were able to help @cupcake88, and that they're being supportive in your fight to get a better level of care from the community mental health team. Will your partner be with you for the next few days? 

Please ensure that you call the crisis team or 999 if you start feeling worse again, and think you may take another overdose.

Fingers crossed the wedding will be able to go ahead, and will be a positive thing for you to look forward to. When is it again? 

cupcake88

It’s 2 months from today the wedding which I want to be able to marry my best friend well enough . I’m on hold to crisis team again as we speak I think I’m going to go down to the crisis pad and get some face to face support  like I did yesterday it helps for a bit but I need a long term solution. I’m seeing my nurse tomorrow and I’m going to be putting my foot down xx

cupcake88

I know there’s so much my team could be doing for me but they don’t they make false promises xx

cupcake88

Hi every one I have been finally given a date for my meds review and it’s at the end of next month can you believe it . I saw my rubbish nurse again today still no updates on a new nurse . 

I’m on hold to crisis team again 
because I’m feeling really suicidal. If they do nothing would some one on this forum mind calling me a ambulance please 

Lou67

Hi @cupcake88

Please phone 999 keep yourself safe.

I wish your meds were getting looked at before end off next month, but at least it’s going to happen.

Stay strong ❤️

Ross_Alumni

Hi @cupcake88

Thanks for getting back to us, and I'm sorry to hear that you aren't feeling too good at the moment. 

I'm about to send you a private message, please give it a read and get back to us. We'd like to support you as best as we can.

cupcake88

My partner took me down to see my Nan for a few days to see if it would help and I felt worse being away from home . My partner is coming to pick me up . I found out today that my partner was called into the office today because it’s been reported by different people that he doesn’t look well and the fact he has to leave work a lot . 

I feel like it’s my fault if he was to loose his job because it’s my fault why he’s so exhausted and why he has to leave work all the time . 

I just feel so bad I feel like what if he looses his job because of me plus I have noticed he seems stressed lately it can’t be easy 
looking after me . 

chiarieds

Hi @cupcake - I'm sorry being away from home wasn't helpful, but I hope you've had some moments enjoying seeing your Nan.

I'm sure your partner's great concern for yourself is probably showing at work, but hopefully his workplace understand, so try not to worry about something that may never happen.

Here's hoping you can both relax a little when you're back home. Love & hugs, xx