How is your day going?

i am back home. it was a quiet session over there but a bit busy on the way back. but anyway i am at home now.. i will be watching whatever is on the telly and tomorrow will be another day. i hope i will win something in the lottery and stop all these. i will never feel at peace for as long as i am in benefits. it is very traumatic but i feel like i will never be able to recover even if i am off benefits. people do not understand how traumatic it is to be in benefits. they think it is a good life when it is not at all. i will try to have a quiet rest of the day.

I've had a total melt down this evening. my 33yr old has driven me totally mad, Neurodivergent's or not he has really crossed the line I feel so numb I can't even talk to him, i forgive being trod on but tonight his words have cut deep, i try to tell myself he doesn't mean all he says but I don't know anymore i totally doubt myself. Sorry for sounding bleak.

Woke up twice last night

16 degrees hete windy

I had a message and it is gone now....anyways I am really bad today. My GP. not prescribing medication or is the pharmacy.. I am sick of all this fighting.... I have not any strength anymore. I hope I got the prescription on Monday. I got emergency medication for next week. But if go doesn't I just will have to stop that medication. I had amedssage explaining it. But it disappeared. Anyways. I hope you have a nice day. Mine better of if I didn't wake up.

i am going to bed… i truly feel bad. i am really scared and worry i have enough in my plate to even have more in it .. i hope my gp make the prescription next week.. i have no direct number.

it is very hard to carry on… i am not sure what to expect from this life…. but this is just too hard

good night…..

Good morning all

Nice morning

@Catherine21 thanks i am feeling rather bad. My heart is racing again and I am just scared. I hope it will past. But I have no energy to fight anymore. I hope it will be ok...

sun is out but i just too down to even open the blinds or the window. i just too down.

i am watching the boring try and i probably will until it is time to go to bed. anyway

very sad i did not win the lotto yesterday. and congratulations to whoever won. On Tuesday is the euromillions , well you never know. i hope to win something from all the stuff i play but i am not sure i will probably never happen.

take care and have a nice day. i just need a way out because i do not trust the system will keep feeding me and for that i am scared…….

night night.. i just not sure what it will happen tomorrow.. my gp is ignoring me. i emailed the clinic as i need medication to be ready before the emergency medication runs out. i hate having to get to have things done. i think he believes i have medication left when i am not. i hope this can be sorted. i do have emergency medication because of the pharmacy so i hope the top up comes before this runs out.

i am hoping the universal credit will be adjusted with that message i wrote in the uc journal. but i am not sure. this is all fighting and fighting and as i state before i have no energy left i am exhausted of overthinking and the fear of what it will happen.. i have to change my mindset but it is so hard. if medication is not coming i might have to stop it abruptly as i do not think my pharmacy will give me more emergency medication .. i will see as i said i am sick of all this fighting. mediction is not really working so probably i would be better off not being on it.. neither the mental nor the pain medication is working ….