Mental health

I know its just awful.

Good morning all.

I hope you manage to have a pleasant day.

I didn't now where to post but this thread seems the most appropriate, I am struggling every day with anxiety and suicidal ideation I also have flashbacks and nightmares. I have had talking therapies who referred back to gp who referred to mental health who diagnosed PTSD and GAD then I had trauma based CBT but couldn't face the reliving element and although I had the full allocation of appointments and it did help a little I was then discharged again. Where do I go now, I struggle to talk to medical people and clam up I also don't trust anyone. Getting a gp appointment is difficult and I find it difficult to leave the house. Would it be better to write to my GP and tell them I am still not okay even on the medications they have me on. I am avoiding all social situations even just having people in my home causes distress. My world has become so small and it's still a frightening place for me, I have panic attacks almost daily at the moment, all these changes with benefit are not helping and although taking propanalol and citalopram it's still really distressing and wipes me out. I have lost most of my family members due to angry outburst …… this isn't who I was or who I want to be.