How is your day going?

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  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,790 Championing
  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,790 Championing

    Take some antihistamines have you got any antiseptic cream to put onto it that sounds very painful

  • 66Mustang
    66Mustang Online Community Member Posts: 15,244 Championing

    @Catherine21

    It's reassuring to read what you're going / have been through. Obviously horrible to know another person has similar but it helps alleviate the isolation.

    I think combined with autism and the "black/white" or "all/nothing" aspect of autism adds another complication.

    For example in my mind if I'm not a horrible person then I'm a fantastic/perfect person… and I know I'm not perfect, so I must be horrible. It sounds stupid to people who don't get the all or nothing mindset but it's how my mind often works. 😆

    Like you I'm working on it and it's a constant battle but it's worth it and makes you appreciate little things that most take for granted, I find

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 649 Empowering

    Morning. I am not great so I am not leaving home today. Yet another day......

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,790 Championing

    I don't think anyone does understand how that constant thinking constant noise in your head is a full time full time job it's so overwhelming real life people get in the way battling non stop chatter then real life people come into the picture jobs relationships soooo overwhelming I have to accept who I am I've been fighting myself for years it doesn't work it doesn't serve me I want to be peaceful relaxed less fearful I don't want all the fear anxiety self-loathing pain I would never treat someone the way I've been treating myself and your right the little things can mean so much later I might feel scared and low but I will recognise it and really try to let it go accepting I live in a world that wasn't made for me but I will try to best to navigate it

  • 66Mustang
    66Mustang Online Community Member Posts: 15,244 Championing

    @Catherine21

    It's interesting about you wouldn't do it to other people, that just shows what a nice person you are… putting others before yourself even subconsciously

    I recently wondered, some of the things I think, say and do - even physically - to myself would be considered abuse if I did them to somebody else, which doing so would never cross my mind… but for some reason I consider it OK to be emotionally, verbally & even physically abusive to myself 🤔

  • 66Mustang
    66Mustang Online Community Member Posts: 15,244 Championing

    I wrote you a reply @Catherine21 but I triggered the filter 🙁 so it might pop up out of context later on, but I valued your post and have replied just so you know I didn't miss it

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 649 Empowering

    @Catherine21 it is hard but we have to try.. but honestly today i have no strength. honestly/, i am scared of making false moves. i just feel more vulnerable than ever.. scared of being judged, scared of everything, scared of being hostile .etc, it is positive i am not in pain yet.. maybe later on. but i really feel like the odd one out everywhere, i just do not know what to do. i try to be positive but ….

  • 66Mustang
    66Mustang Online Community Member Posts: 15,244 Championing

    @Schildpad I think you're an interesting person… you may well be the "odd" one out in most places but people often stand out for good reasons, not bad ones! 👍

  • xodza
    xodza Online Community Member Posts: 98 Contributor

    Good morning hope everyone not feeling too bad nice morning so far not moved much as my pain level bit high so affected my mobility still managed to keep smile on

  • 66Mustang
    66Mustang Online Community Member Posts: 15,244 Championing

    Hope you keep ok @xodza and don't get too bored not being able to do stuff. 👍

  • Amberpearl
    Amberpearl Online Community Member Posts: 3,130 Championing
  • Holly_Scope
    Holly_Scope Posts: 4,073 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    Sorry to hear how things are for you at the moment @Amberpearl 😥 hopefully you can be seen by your GP soon. It might be worth mentioning your lump too whilst there. I hope you start to feel better.

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,790 Championing

    It's ok to feel these feelings your body gets transported triggered and it's gets hold of you it's hard to relax without feeling you should be doing things you did something amazing volunteering work doing something you love that's amazing you sorted your uc out and that must have been stressful try have a chilled day you deserve to rest I get really really scared and paranoid ao paranoid I'm trying to fight the @@@@ dont be hard on yourself there is no rule book we are all unique just be yourself we all have something to bring to the table it's the over analysing that's drives me insane and pre emptying the future ps I believe people who suffer the most are the kindest people ever i

  • 66Mustang
    66Mustang Online Community Member Posts: 15,244 Championing

    @Catherine21

    Here's my earlier post meant for you, I've added it as an image so it hopefully doesn't set off the spam filter again

    I agree with what you say about sufferers - in whatever capacity - often making the kindest people. It's funny as I imagine lots of the cruellest people have endured trauma as well. It's almost as though it sends many people one way or the other. 🤔

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  • 66Mustang
    66Mustang Online Community Member Posts: 15,244 Championing

    Hi @Grumpy1314 glad to hear you had a good sleep

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,790 Championing

    It's that inner critic always there to punish us I've had since gosh I can remember age of 3 feeling upset sad angry so 50 years is a long time and yes I can say I beat myself up everyday since then and throw people into the mix bam my mind is gone i do self isolate alot i used to hate myself for that thinking i had no friends but know I'm perfectly fine in my own company they actually have therapy that is all about being kind and compassionate to yourself makes alot of sense when I see other people hurt i genuinely feel so much for them even strangers I'm a great empath so I'm really trying to be easy on myself worth a try

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 649 Empowering

    good afternoon, evening and night…. i am really feeling awful. i just feel so scared so bad.

    anyway i have to be at my best for tomorrow so i will be ready but at the same time i do not want to see tomorrow. it is a constant worry… i will see how i feel for tomorrow.

  • Amberpearl
    Amberpearl Online Community Member Posts: 3,130 Championing