Mental health
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hey
thanks, hope you're ok.
no I can feel that, such a shame 😥
it's been an awful year, I have recently had two new diagnosis neither are good, takes the total to 21 conditions And I had to be sorted out recently for trying to exit the world (again) but I'm here for now. I don't "do" social media anymore,I don't read up anything to do with DWP or the government I enjoy the ignorance is bliss approach.
I did reluctantly move over to UC via mum who's my appointee and am due my first payment Friday.
I did however tell mum as I didn't want to claim it and am now partly on CB ESA too if they attempt to move me again in the future to this so called unemployment insurance that I'm not playing their games anymore or doing anything I'm incapable of.
on a more positive note back in May I relaunched my radio station TVGR radio Sussex and it's now much widely listened to and known
I still collect films and tv shows on physical media and when severely depressed still have issues with compulsive purchasing of them to drown the world out by watching them to keep me occupied.
apart from the awful news about Albus who always appreciated and shared my horror film love and the loss of lovely bluebells presence what has been happening with you all here and in the forum?
x
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Hello Nightcity, its good to see you're back here I'm in touch with our lovely Bluebell several times a week, she's ok. Please do feel free to message here or DM me and I'll pass it on to her. Please, take good care of yourself xx
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Hey so glad to hear from you !!! Sorry you been going through alot 21 diagnosis I had my first payment two weeks ago it went smoothly
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hey, great to see you again
glad to hear all that 😃💛
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Hey!
Great to see you and hear that, hope you're still doing well I know how you used to make yourself ill with worry.
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I never forget your support never its so sad about albus what a great loss sounds great about radio station
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I sorry I left for 8 months I had no choice a member here just annoyed me so much and I had such mental health and physical health issues.
Although I can't guarantee I'll always be around I'll not close the account again and will always as before have your back with support.
I have arthritis and heart failure now it took them a while because I only just turned 43 and they looked at other things first for the widespread edema (swelling) especially with my family history of renal issues but my kidneys (touch wood are perfect) unfortunately my heart seems to be packing up instead.
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I’m just taking things down a huge notch, I’ve acknowledged that I’ve been on a downward spiral since start of October. I’ve neglected my flat alongside me personal care to. One huge thing is I’m just feeling flat, hopeless and downtrodden. I’ve just stayed in bed since Sunday night, with the phone on sleep mode to block out the world. With incoming C word next month I’m just going to ground and shutting myself down. I just have so much going on inside my head that it’s like every major battle in history.
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@Zippy1983 I think just having communication on here helps when we are faced with situations we feel out of control of.Sending love your way X
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@Nightcity so glad you are here too.I was upset once by something a member said ( a long long time ago).On reflection,in my instance I think the person had issues of their own ( as do I ) and sometimes mental health issues can manifest themselves on an unhealthy and unhelpful way.Once something is in print it can be lethal especially when directed at someone else and especially the vulnerable ( which I think most of us are).I think thankfully its rare to have negative feedback or comments.But I always try and keep in mind now that the other person has their own reason for it and its not personal to me.For all the wonderful and helpful comments we give each other makes it such an incredible place to be X
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@Catherine 21 dearest who always has the sweetest words.I couldn't end the evening without a note to say how lovely you are on here too.Always x
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Oh thankyou so kind xx so glad you and nightcity back 😘
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OOh no way im so sorry hey dont worry about all the changes dont stress yourself honestly you would more than meet the scc criteria keep yourself stress free we all missed you always here god ive done about 8 thousand posts hhhh like diary to me but pls dont stress yourself its really not worth it ❤️
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seconded
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I am not scc although I would indeed qualify as my worst limitations are constant have been since I was 5 and will be till I die, but the dwp are too selfish to put people in that group but as you know I'm the sort who on principle would close the claim and take my chances than be bullied and harassed.
hope you're ok today, thanks I came back as I missed a few people, you being one, bluebell and Albus were amongst the others so that was upsetting to hear about them.
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Thirded (if it's such a word!).
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I know god albus helped us all so so so much never forgotten never and bluebell so kind always a good morning and good night
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He had a unique ability to see the good in even dire situations and always tried to offer a calming angle.
yes always said goodnight etc and she always checked on me when I went quiet such a lovely person.
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I’m kind of just going to dip in and out of here occasionally. I’m struggling really badly with my mental health and physical health at the moment. I’m feeling exhausted all the time, don’t have the energy or drive to do any housework let alone personal care. I’d say I’m just neglecting myself and the dungeon I live in. I’m now just eating a bowl of cereal a day and don’t have energy to do anything else.
The last six weeks I’ve just gone into a downward spiral and with the big C next month it’s not helping the mood not one iota. I sit and I honestly say to myself “Why am I so broken and still alive” I scraped myself out of bed at 7 today to put the rubbish out, then just stagnated on the sofa fighting the urge to sleep. Had to have a sleep at dinner and at tea time I nodded off again. This time I’ve taken myself back to bed, just wish I knew what was wrong with me and who I must have been in a past life to be such an awful person to be still around today.
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I can relate I've got clinical depression it responds to nothing never has it comes in bad waves but is always constant.
the thing next month you mention isn't a great time for me and I don't particularly like it either.
I also spend most my time in a phugoid motion like an aircraft with no tail rudder, I'll bury myself in huge piles of films, my radio station etc and ignore reality, so I climb and climb upwards then I'll think about something and pitch down at full acceleration.
Since my mum had a cardiac arrest in march I've been worse than ever, because she's my only family as well as my carer and appointee I've wasted months myself violently unwell with what if I lose her, I'll say to her I'm scared about your health and future and what happens.
as I literally can't communicate face to face or by phone and my learning issues prevent me learning and maintaining information I'd not be able to deal with anything that would ever involve a phone call or face to face and the DWP would shred me apart because they just refuse to get ot and mum is like a barrier they can't get passed to do that.
The Gp knows I have a planned way out down to the finest detail and keeps a check on me but he also knows I'd never activate that plan unless literally there was no way out , no option no hope.
mum bless her just doesn't get it why I'm scared and why I keep going on about it she is so calm and like don't worry now etc etc or don't jump ahead.
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