Autism/Depression

Dwp to prevent fraud and to look into bankaccounts , to get those aren't working working. The same what they said all along

OMG Just found this thread, I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE!!!

So I really believe this is a 'thing'. I read that in the US they did an experiment where they got a load of diagnosed psychopathic criminals from prisons and walked them past a line up which included victims of crime and those who'd never been victims. Apparently the prisoners could pick out every victim without knowing any of them. I really think opportunists DO see us coming! I'm struggling at work AGAIN and it's always the same scenario - I get totally overloaded with work, far more than anyone else is given, underpaid, have to work for free in my own time to get the job done and because I end up stressed and miserable everybody hates me. And I had an epiphany this week - I looked around at my work colleagues and my boss's favourites, and I tried to see how THEY do life. And I think I go into everything with such a giving and friendly nature, I want to help, I volunteer, I never want to see someone struggling or something not get done that's important and I try to do what I'm asked as well as I can to support my boss. I'm thinking that's my job as a good worker. My BOSS is thinking 'What a mug, she's one I can push'. Because his favourites, when I think about it, started saying 'I'm not doing all that!' and refused about the second day they were there, and they were never asked again. I'd never have thought it appropriate to do that in a new job, nor is it my nature to be so unsupportive to my employers. But nice guys don't win prizes. And I honestly think he resents me for trying so hard and thinks I'm weak.

With relationships I was the same - gave away all my money to help idiots because I felt bad for them and wanted to help - now I'm penniless. Trusted them because they told me I could. Didn't think they'd screw me over because we were friends. I'm actually embarrassed saying it. I'm a regular mug. Because my world is honest and kind and loyal and pleasant I never see it coming because my brain just doesn't think like that. I have no urge to be vindictive or vengeful, no wish to lie, I'd never be dishonest and cheat, and I think I've been judging everyone and everything via 'planet eeL'. If I'm honest it's alot of why I struggle with my mental health - I feel stupid and hate myself for being such a fool, making so many stupid mistakes and being done over time after time after time - so MANY times that I can't forgive myself for it keeping on happening and I see why no one has any sympathy because I'm THAT stupid. I'm a regular dum*ars*. I now speak to no one and have no friends, I live like a hermit and I'm terrified of everybody, because it feels like I'm constantly hunted and under fire. I hate going out of my front door. Any human being is trouble to me. People say 'You should go out there, you might meet someone!' and I say, 'Oh yeah, I absolutely would -a complete d*ckhead!' Because even if there were 20 nice people out there I can guarantee you I end up making friends with number 21 who's a tool.

I'm the same tend to look for the good in people and treated badly. Been through abuse , domestic abuse , had friends treat me like a door mat, relationship with a narcissistic and a domestic abuser. I now.dont want friends, don't want to go out, don't want a relationship. I have chronic illness which I won't recover from . Can't do a lot like I used to. Have lost my mum, brother and sister since 2017 . Was there when mum died in hospital when they failed her.

I was her carer. I've never got over it, been abused and belittled for having Autism. I'm on antidepressants again. All this worry with what the government going to do just puts a strain on me.