Hi, my name is KITTYCAT88!

KITTYCAT88
KITTYCAT88 Online Community Member Posts: 16 Listener
in Start here and say hello!
Hello, my name is Catherine. I am 33 years old and was diagnose with dyspraxia in 1st grade. Have the learning speech side of it. It took my just late to except who I am. If that make sense. I feel like no one get me ,so I decide to come on here to meet people who understand me more. I in the healthfeild for about 14 years . Nursing home to home health to taking care of special need to now assisted living. So yea.

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  • Tori_Scope
    Tori_Scope Scope Posts: 12,453 Championing
    A warm welcome to the community from me too @KittyCat88 :) How are you getting on today? 

    Thank you for sharing a bit about yourself, and why you've joined. 

    Do you enjoy working in the healthcare field? I can imagine it's tough, but rewarding.

    Do you feel you've now accepted yourself a bit more? It can take time, but it's worth working on :) 

    Please feel free to take a look around the community, and get stuck in. Here are a few good places to start:
  • KITTYCAT88
    KITTYCAT88 Online Community Member Posts: 16 Listener
    It's easy for me in the health feild. Cause I have a huge heart., I alway put people before me. If someone call me 1am and the need help I there no doubt. Cause if the shoes on the other foot I want someone that I know I can count on. Everyone need that. So I keep help hope that I have someone like that.and  taking care of people make me feel needed.  I got to feel needed. I don't have to have anything from it.  

    It took me 33 years to get to a point to not be shame on what I got but be ok that I dyspaxia. But I still have a lot of work but I came so far with out no help. I had to shut doors that I thought I never thought I could do. Specially on almost all my family. They just put me down. I d ok but need or deserve that. I want silence for a long time and let them keep do it. The day I shut them out that when I grow and healing began. It been 5 years now.  
  • Tori_Scope
    Tori_Scope Scope Posts: 12,453 Championing
    It sounds like you're really passionate about helping people @kittycat88, which is great to hear :) And you're right that you never know when you might need support in the future, so we should all try to be there for each other. 

    I'm sorry that your family were putting you down. Distancing yourself from people who are having a negative influence on you can be really hard, especially when they're people you care about, but I'm glad to hear that it's helped you to grow and heal. 

    Do you have other people in your life who lift you up and make you feel more positive about yourself now? 
  • KITTYCAT88
    KITTYCAT88 Online Community Member Posts: 16 Listener
    I have very very few people that in some way yes the positive but other way not so much. But all I got to be positive for myself. If I do that it will all fall in place.
  • robdx
    robdx Online Community Member Posts: 61 Contributor
    @KITTYCAT88 Welcome
    Only been here a few days myself, but just wanted to say please never feel shame about who you are, glad to see you are being more positve
  • KITTYCAT88
    KITTYCAT88 Online Community Member Posts: 16 Listener
    I did feel shame for a long time but I had my first  panic attack about three years ago.  It's was bad I cry about three hours. I never told no one what I went through in school or my life. I alway put my head up high and keep walking. I kept everything inside. My husband took my kids to scout while I had panic attack because. At scout they build and paint bird house that night. My husband told them I need a extra one. They say no at first, he was determined to get one. When he got home he give me one and say to decorations.so I did and it change my life. I beginning to paint. I am very good at it. Surprise myself. I don't know what I going to painted till it done. I love do black light pictures. But after the panic attack ,that when I start to heal. That when I got more tough and more outspoken. From that point I start to grew and coping with my dyspraxia. I got to the point that I tell people that I have it. Because if the don't know that I have it the don't know me or understand me. So I think that people that have kids that have it tell them to not keep thing in and tell someone what going on and how they feel. I didn't do that and imy self esteem was very very low. It took a long long time to get it back and I still not there. So if anyone have kids that go through this I like to help them in anyway I can. It's better for someone that have to help them someone or don't have it. 

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